Here's all of my only-vaguely-mentally-ill poetry! I dunno! It's not like, triggering I don't think? Just kind of mentally ill!
boom
and i will keep fighting
even if it kills me
because i will die either way
and i’d rather do it in flames
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Deadbeat town
ITS LIKE BEING IN A COLLAPSING BUILDING IN A COLLAPSING TOWN
AND WANTING SO DESPERATELY TO SAVE ALL OF THE OTHER BUILDINGS FIRST
BUT YOU CANT GO OUT AND KEEP THE OTHER BUILDINGS FROM COLLAPSING UNTIL YOU ESCAPE FROM YOUR OWN
AND ALL YOU CAN SEE IS A WINDOW OUT TO WATCH THE OTHER BUILDINGS AS YOU FEEL THE RUBBLE OF YOUR OWN FALL ON YOU
BUT THE DOOR IS LOCKED AND SO ARE THE WINDOWS SO YOU JUST SIT AND WATCH AND FUCKING SUFFER
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I've been distracting myself since 6th grade
The silence sets in too quickly
and I fall apart too soon
So let’s get this little mess busy
And keep him okay until the new moon
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More like 10 times, nowadays
nothing feels real.
nothing has felt real since 2016, and
it has been the end of the world 3 times, and
my soul no longer feels clean, and
i think i’ve been lost since 2016
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