Statement 10. 5/02/24

Statement begins.

I'm doing... Fine.

I have a boyfriend now! Ren is great. We met at a valentine's day concert, and I gave him my instagram. I was immediately into him, but I figured he wasn't into me-we went a while without talking, and he said he was aromantic. After talking for a while, he's not aromantic.

He keeps buying me stuff. Takes care of me. I really like the dynamic we have. I really like being taken care of in a relationship, even if it makes me feel bad-like a burden, all of the time. He's helping me get over that, though. I hate to admit it, but I kind of want him to fix me. He's made me feel better than any therapist I've ever had.

Spring semester is basically over, thank god. It was a rough one. Rough enough to get me to beg my psychiatrist to put me on less sleepy bipolar meds-it's Lamictal, now, instead of Depakote. I think it's helping, but everything is still so hard, constantly.

I got a single bedroom for this semester. I don't think I'm going to have it for more than a semester, because rent is a nightmare. But rent is always going to be a nightmare, so maybe I need to get used to working enough to handle it. Having my own room again is really nice.

This year has been a lot. Already. I don't know how I'm getting through it. Hopefully Ren helps.

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